The world is round
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning ~Ivy Baker Priest.
So here it is….my very first blog post.
I find myself for more than a month in front of the end of a very beautiful part of my life and a very meaningful part also….but for about a month I am moving on, looking forward to my future, but still somewhere in the back of my mind I am procrastinating as if it will be less painful if you still hold on, just for one second more…just so it can hurt a little more when you finally put a stop to it….And who knows, it might be the beginning of a better part, but as long as I keep looking in the past, my eyes will be faaar away from the future …so now I am putting an end to it, and the only way that I know how to do it is to change some things around me, to change some things in me….like taking time to write down some personal thoughts that were always there, but never gave them the needed priority in my desire of fully experiencing this traineeship.
There is this quote that I found and it is true. “Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it’s the middle that counts. You have to remember this when you find yourself at the beginning.” Even if I have lots of courage and get over my conscious or inconscious fears without giving them too much importance…and it worked for me so far…this quote it is true, and you feel it more when you are on your own and far away from most of the people who love and care for you and that you love and care for….and even having so much support from them can be painful….but definitely less painful than not having their support.
Putting an end to this wonderful time of my life doesn’t mean that I will not talk further about the previous times of my life. I appreciated a lot all the 2009 experiences, the good and unfortunately the bad experiences, especially related to my knees health, just like a learned also from all my previous experiences that brought me so far. But now it is time to move on, the future is ahead of me and writing thoughts down will make me clear my mind from them and just make me move on…yes, it is true, writing is healing your mind and your soul, and I haven’t practiced that since a while 😀 …those were the days, my friend, with a notebook or a piece of paper and a pen, but now we are evolving, so online it is! Web 2.0 is for the moment the change that will bring freshness in my life, the creative endeavour that I am willing to give time for it, because I am sure it will help me more than isolating my mind and focusing on a drawing, as I did some time ago.
And an article that I read these days will definitely make me keep my promise of coming back to reference points from my past. The article is about a Portuguese writer, Jose Luis Peixoto, that said that books are incomplete until somebody is reading the books and gives them a meaning. Adapting this, my experience will be fully complete and finished when I will discover the reason for this twist in the end of the experience…and when I will be able to give a final meaning to all the things I’ve been through. My experience might be finished if I consider the time already for a month!, but I think it still needs time to be complete, to have a better meaning attached to it… so I will let it mature just like a good wine, in the safety of my mind.
Why this name for my personal blog? …because it’s all about rhythm and colours in my life ….I love music, all the people who know me can confirm that….and I find myself recording people, places, situations, projects etc and associating them with a song or a colour 🙂 And I love moving things forward, and that needs rhythm too, and why not, spice it up with a little bit of colour!
But just like in life, this rhythm will have its ups and down’s, it will be a fast pace or a slow pace, and for as much as possible, I will try to keep the sorrow away, but with all the necessary excuses…..WTF, I will probably be silly and sorrow and you name it… it is also part of life, and life is real, so I cannot stop writing or thinking about it. But there is hope!!…I am usually a highly happy energetic person 🙂 so I should compensate with that….probably in my future posts, if I get this blogging virus. 😀
So I am starting over ….yeap….Halloween 2009 is my moment to start over :). I’ll keep you posted….or freaked out, after the Halloweeen!! Hahahaha! :)))
I am leaving you with the song that was in my mind and ears when I wrote this post In some countries the first video is not working, so here is a live performance of the same song that should work